Never ever again

2 tahun yang lalu, ketika dunia terasa pergi meninggalkanku, ketika tawa tak lagi terasa tulus, ketika hati masih menjerit marah, dan luka yang belum juga sembuh.

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what i've done wrong
and how long it's been going on

Was it that i never paid enough attention?
or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but i'll know never to make te same mistake again

You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter
either way I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way,i'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions
I have to find

I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
No, i'm just waiting
cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out from this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way i'm feeling,
You got me feeling really bad

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more

I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be free from pain, going insane
My heart aches

Tapi bukan Kamu

Jangan lagi kusesali keputusanku
Ku tak ingin aku semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin kupaksakan cinta ini
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kuterima

Kamu memang manusia paling berdosa
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
Lebih baik jangan mencintai kamu dan semua hatimu
Karena takkan pernah kutemui cinta sejati

Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
dan jangan kutangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
Sebab rasamu telah mati untuk menyadarinya

Semoga saja kan kudapati
Hati yang tulus mencintaiku
Tapi bukan kamu

(21 Mei 2009, di salah satu perjalanan menuju Bandung)